Tuesday 18 November 2014

Cumberbitches all right


At the US Imitation Game premiere we saw them finally together;
Benedict Cumberbatch and his fiancee Sophie Hunter or as his Fandom are calling them fondly; Benophie. He was ready to show her to the world and how lovely she looked or rather they looked together side by side.

The happy couple was absolutely glowing and I think as a fan of Benedict you should rejoice in his happiness.
Because why shouldn't you be happy for him? The man couldn't be more happy; His soon to be wife at his side and the Imitation Game doing very well already in the UK where it was the best opening film in years this weekend!
The man is heading towards an Oscar I'd say and not only me but a lot of people who know what they are talking about.
Last week he got a Hollywood Film Award for best actor to start of the award season. Bring it on!



What bothers me however is there are some girls in the Fandom (one can hardly call them women the way they're reacting) who are spoiling it for the rest. There are always rotten apples in the barrel. They are consistent in their claim that Sophie isn't for Benedict that she's ugly even or that Benedict isn't happy.
One only has to look at the photos of the premiere to see that he is happy and proud.




Then again, we are mere fans and his private life is his own. We are fans of his work and his private life is none of our concern!
We have to be gratful he is granting us this little bit of his life to share this with the world.
If you cannot be happy for them, don't call yourself a Cumberfan!

Sorry rant over. You may continue fangirling... as you were.

© KH

Friday 7 November 2014

Cumberfans and the Media


Benedict Cumberbatch and Sophie Hunter at the French Open earlier this year and the Times announcement


On November 5th Benedict Cumberbatch announced in the Times that he's getting engaged to Sophie Hunter. Almost immediately Twitter and Tumblr bursted with happy Cumberfans who congratulated the happy couple. Hashtag #congratulationsBenedictandSophie was the thing to tweet and Benedict Cumberbatch and Sophie Hunter were trending topic. Everyone who was doing their research would know that most of the Fandom was rejoicing and who wouldn't be? If you're not happy for your idol's joy and happiness are you a real fan? Every Cumberfan knows Benedict wants to have a family of his own. So yes we all shared our exitement.




But the days following the announcement the newspapers and tabloids were throwing article after article at us without even verifying sources or 'doing their research' as Sherlock would say. They only had to read on Twitter or Tumblr (which is what they are doing anyway) to see how the CumberCollective was feeling about the news. But no, nothing of the sort. Almost every article said 'we' are crying our eyes out or that our dreams are shattered. (yes we all still thought we could 'get' him *rolls eyes* ) There are articles written by women who are calling us Cumberbitches (we all hate the word; Benedict hates the word we don't like to be called that) and even calling Sophie one! As if she's some überCumberbitch who has caught herself the jackpot.



I find it all very offensive to say the least! I am appalled how the media are talking about us Cumberbatch fans (whatever names we give ourselves)as if we are mindless crying stupid nobodies (Bitches even) We are all very happy Benedict and Sophie are engaged to be married and we want them to be happy! Let us be happy for our man! We are one happy Cumberfamily! If you don't understand that, it's your problem don't make it ours!
The media didn't even bother to read our reaction to it all;


Of course it's much more tempting to write a story about crying teens (not all of us are you know, a lot of us are married women with a healthy Cumbercrush) writing about happy Cumberfans is probally not a good story. But writing all lies is? It's lazy journalism in my eyes and I can get really angry if they attack Benedict and now Sophie and the Cumbercollective. It's not a bunch of rabid fanatic fans as some are so fast to label us. No we are a wonderful supportive Fandom (most of us are in it for Benedict's work mind you his amazing acting skills, let's not forget that) who are embracing Sophie and welcoming her into the Cumberfamily.
Sure she must realize she has to share Benedict a bit but I'm sure she doesn't mind that.

So we would love it if you would stop calling us 'bitches' we're not dogs and if you would do your research from now on dear Media.
Furthermore if you say harmful thing about either Benedict or Sophie be prepared for a really angry Cumbercollective that will protect both of them with everything they've got!
You are warned!

© KH

Thursday 22 May 2014

Vote

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Today we have to vote for the European Parliament in my country. It's not a very popular issue over here: Voting for Europe. Which I find rather sad really. You don't get to comment on any  political issues if you don't bother voting.

I don't want to get very political here anyway only want to talk about the fact we do get to vote. There are countries where you may vote, but where your vote doesn't count. Corruption or dictatorship is still ongoing in these days and age.

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It isn't that long ago women where fighting for a right to vote.
So if I hear from a woman that she's not going to vote because 'it is no use anyway' I always get a little upset really.
These so called Suffragettes paved the way for us women today to cast our votes! And young (and old) women today are throwing that away like it's nothing.

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And although women can vote from 1919 in most countries because of these suffragettes, voting for  women is still not possible in for instance Saudi Arabia.

We have come a long way and you may not agree with a united Europe or you may agree, not voting is just not the way to say you don't agree!
Let your voice be heard and vote.

© KH

Read more about the Suffragettes here

Friday 16 May 2014

Eyes open

*introduction; I have written a lot of short stories in Dutch. I'm busy translating them in English. I do hope the translation is correct, if not please send me a message but bear in mind English is not my first language. I do hope you like my stories and I would love for you to leave a comment*

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With my eyes open I lay on the grass in between the bushes. A light breeze played with my hair and blew it over my face. I felt how the wind touched my naked breast and how my nipples stood upright because of it. I couldn’t move. I wasn’t there anymore; didn’t feel my body. If my nipples hadn’t reacted I would have most certainly thought I was dead but they said something else clearly. I tried to move my lifeless fingers; to blink with my eyes. Clotted blood was sticking on my eyelashes. I could smell it. With every move the pain was going through my skull, although in this case it was simply blinking with my eyelids. There was not a sound to be heard, even the birds didn’t speak a word, well birds words that is. I lay there thinking in agony how I got here and what had happened, but I couldn’t figure it out. I just lay there half naked, for as far as I could see and feel it, in the grass, probably in a forest. I couldn’t turn my head but I could smell the forest, the trees. I could smell, besides the blood, fir needles. Above my head I saw a little bit of blue sky and a lot of green leaves, branches and was that a coat?

But whose coat was that? Mine? It was a green coat, pretty big too. It didn’t seem as my coat. Again I tried turning my head but I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t move a muscle. My whole body seemed numb, paralysed. I could only look straight up; to the sky and the branches. And just lay there and listen. Slowly but certain I started to panic. What if I laid here and nobody would find me, or worse, the one who had left me here did! Before the panic could take over completely, I tried to calm myself. Take a deep breath, breathe in, and breathe out. And above all listen! Listen to the sounds around you.
Far away I could hear the sound of a cuckoo interchanged with the hammering of a woodpecker. Those sounds made me somewhat calmer somehow. I tried to concentrate on my breathing. That was the only thing I seemed to have some influence upon after all. After that I checked my body. What would possibly still function and what absolutely not?

I started at my toes, concentrated real hard if I could move them and tried to wiggle my big toe. I felt the perspiration on my forehead. Oh nice, that was a good thing! I could feel that at least! I could better start at checking my head first. I did feel pain under my skull, as if someone had given me a huge blow to the head or something. I felt the twitching at my eyebrow and smelled the fragrance of the clotted blood and my conclusion was that there had to be a cut on my forehead that had bled so severely that the blood had run over my eyelashes. When I tried to look up I just could see a little piece of it. Okay, so I knew that.
My hearing was still alright, I could hear things, birds that were far away. I still had hair that blew over my face by the wind, not unimportant.
 
I looked up and sneezed. That hurt. But still that too worked. I was smacking my lips and put my tongue out of my mouth. With my tongue I went over my teeth and touched them. I did have all my teeth as well; Thank God. Head; Check.

But tilting my head to see where I was or what else was left of me, that wasn’t an option. Damn it!
 
I took a deep breath and tried it again; nothing. Not even painful or anything, just nothing.
I sighed and went on with the rest of my body. My shoulders, I felt them pressing down on the ground but as with the rest I just checked, they didn’t move. My arms then; they just lay there. Do something! Nothing, fingers, didn’t move. I couldn’t move them no matter how hard I tried. I thought how strange it was that my mouth, my lips, my tongue, they all moved but the rest didn’t.

My stomach went up and down from respiration but that was it. My nipples seemed to have feeling, I felt the soft breeze blow over them and felt them standing upright but that was it from my upper body. My lower body; I couldn’t look down to see but I didn’t feel it not even if it was dressed or not. I didn’t have any feeling left in it. I sighed again and started to look up again.  There I was; God knew how long I was laying there and God knew how long I had to lay there still.

Suddenly I heard voices; loud arguing men’s voices. And there was the panic again. What did I have to do now? See if my voice worked (and why on earth hadn’t I tried that before?) or shouldn’t I? What if they were responsible for the fact that I was laying here in the first place and why the hell didn’t I remember?
The voices came closer and closer. I couldn’t keep laying here now could I? I could lay here forever then if and when someone would ever miss me.

All of a sudden I heard a rustling noise and panting. My heart was beating louder in my chest so it seemed. I wanted to scream, yell out loud but I couldn’t do a damn thing.
The panting got louder and very abruptly I felt my ear getting wet. Something was licking at my ear. A loud bark made me deaf at one ear temporarily. A dog! There was a dog standing next to me, licking my ear! I turned my eyes to look at him but he immediately ran away barking. Oh no, don’t run away, come back! I wanted to shout but not a damn sound came out of my throat. The men’s voices became silent but the barking continued. I heard the cracking of dead branches and footsteps on dry ones and cursing. Fear came over me but everything seemed better than just laying here. What if it got dark tonight and I got left behind all alone?

‘Oh my God’ I suddenly heard one of the man saying standing above me. I looked up and tried to smile at him and say ‘Hi’, but again, nothing came out of my mouth. I imagined shrugging my shoulders knowing I couldn’t anyway. 

The second man appeared ‘Jesus fucking Christ’ he yelled. They both remained there standing looking at me. Hello! I’m not a fairground attraction! Haven’t you guys ever seen a (half) naked woman before? The dog came walking towards me and started to lick my face again. 

‘Stop that. Down boy’ the first man said with an angry tone in his voice.

‘We have to call the police’ the second man said. The other one nodded I saw and started to take out his mobile phone. He bent over and put his fingers in my neck. Hey, what are you doing? Don’t you dare touch me!

‘I don’t feel anything’ he said grabbing my wrist. Hey, my wrist! I knew it was there somewhere. The man put two fingers on my artery. Oh my, what a lot of blood on my wrist! What is all that blood doing there? And how did it get there?
The man shook his head again ‘No she’s gone, dead. Whoever did that deserves the death penalty as far as I’m concerned, the poor thing’

‘Don’t touch anything anymore then, it’s a crime scene, we have to let the police handle it’ the man nodded at the other man, dialled a number on his phone and started talking but I didn’t even listen anymore.

Crime scene, dead? What on earth is he on about? I’m alive can’t he see that? Hello!? I’m right here! Look at me; I’m sticking my tongue out at you! But what about all that blood? The men were pretty shook up.

I noticed I started to slip away. No, no not that please. The men became blurry and the dog looked at me wagging his tail but he also became very vague to me. Dog, you do see me don’t you? Far away I heard sirens wailing and the two men turned their backs at me so they didn’t have to look at me. Did I look awful? I felt myself slipping further and further away. I saw a paramedic and a cop coming towards me ‘Oh my God’ they too were saying and ‘how dreadful’ and ‘awful’

They examined my body and made the same conclusion as the men: ‘Dead; I think some 24 hours now’ the detective said. ‘But what a horrible way to go’

What were they saying about me? I really didn’t understand it all. The dog looked at me again wagging his tail and licked my face again. I smiled at him; he was so nice to me after all. I heard the cuckoo and the woodpecker in the distance. I was so damn tired and my head ached like hell. I decided to close my eyes; just for a little while and take a nap. That would make me feel better. They were here to save me and everything would be alright.

‘We’re going to close her eyes and take her to the lab’ the detective said. ‘Further forensic research will determine what has happened here and the pathologist will look for the exact cause of death but I can’t imagine the suffering she must have had! Take her back to the lab’

© KH

Wednesday 14 May 2014

Ben & Jen: Ficlet for a friend

The Ben/Jen love story

A ficlet for a friend

 

As Jen was sitting at her desk at the office her mind was wandering constantly. She looked out the window and sighed; this was not what she had imagined life would be like. Day after day the same boring people, the same boring boss yelling and screaming until his face turned a scary shade of reddish purple. Day after day the same view from that little corner in her office; a tiny window with the view of a street filled with tall office buildings with here and there a tiny tree. Busy streets with even busier traffic and people running to catch a bus or an auto rickshaw. Jen was sitting there staring with her head resting on her hand; she sighed again. Where is prince Charming when you need him, she thought while she turned back to her computer to start work again.

She noticed a couple of messages on her Twitter account from her friends. She really wanted to reply, but her boss was already watching her so she saw. She started typing and ignored the purple head of her boss.

When she had her break she read all the messages and laughed. Talking about the one great love of her life gave her energy to go on. She looked at her watch; she had an hour left before she could go home again. She quickly typed a snappy remark to her friends about Ben the lovely actor and went back to work. Prince Charming indeed, she thought. Come and rescue me from this hell hole… for God’s sake! The boss was already on his way to check up on her again. She was this close of telling him off, but she put on her loveliest smile and greeted him like an old friend; ‘Well how can I help you today, sir?’ she said politely. Inside she felt a rage she almost couldn’t control. She tried her best, honest she did. With a clenched jaw she stood there while he was checking her work, which was perfect of course. It bothered him always that he couldn’t find a damn thing wrong with it and every day just before she wanted to get the hell out of there, he came over to check her. She really wanted to scream! She almost did too. She looked at her workstation out of her window to the street below ready to yell at her boss at any time now. But all of a sudden when she had opened her mouth to shout at her boss she closed it again. Did she see what she thought she’d see? Suddenly she was quite in a hurry. She pushed her boss aside and grabbed her bag and ran out the door; ignoring the loud screaming demanding voice of her boss to come back immediately.

Jen ran to the elevator and waited impatiently. She tapped her foot on the floor: ‘Come on, hurry up’ she mumbled. As soon as the elevator arrived she got in pushed the button and waited until the thing was down all eleven stores. ‘Bloody hell’ Jen couldn’t take it anymore when the elevator stopped on the 5th. She got out and ran down the stairs. When she was in the lobby she took a moment to collect her breath but then she pushed the door open and walked outside apparently calm and collected but nervous inside. Had she been right in thinking what she had seen? Or was it all an illusion; wishful thinking? It couldn’t have been, could it?

But when Jen stood outside on the big square between the office buildings, there he was; talking to some journalists. Her prince Charming surrounded by not only press but some fans as well. She felt her heart skip a few beats and took a few extra breaths. What was he doing here in her country of all places in the world? She hadn’t heard he would come over here or had she missed that one? No she couldn’t have. She took out her phone and took a quick photo of him and sent that to her Twitter friends; ‘look who’s here!’ she tweeted ‘Can you imagine that?’

She couldn’t wait for an answer back, she had to keep an eye on him, this was a once in a life time opportunity after all! While she was putting her phone back in her bag she noticed the crowd murmuring. She looked up and saw Ben walking towards her. Quickly she looked over her shoulder who or what was there but she couldn’t see where he was heading.

When she looked back he was standing in front of her and with his deep, dark voice he said: ‘Hello Jen I’m so happy to finally meet you’ 

He smiled and Jen’s mouth opened and closed again; ‘Me?’ She asked ‘You know who I am?’

‘Yes of course I do’ Ben kept on smiling ‘You asked me to come and here I am’

‘Pinch me’ Jen said ‘I’m asleep aren’t I? I’m asleep and when I wake up this is just a dream’

Behind Jen her boss came running with his reddish head turning purple from anger; ‘Janet you come here this instant! If you do not, you are fired you hear me, FIRED!’

‘Wait here’ Ben said softly ‘Excuse me sir but you cannot and will not talk to my fiancé like that’ Ben turned to Jen and smirked at her ‘Jen do you agree about leaving that job and come and work for me?’

‘Hell yes!’ Jen shouted

‘I’m sorry but Jen is no longer in your employment goodbye’

Ben turned around leaving Jen’s boss to stay and become purpler than he’d ever been. On the verge of exploding so it seemed to Jen, but so was Jen. She still could not believe what Ben had said; he was here for her? Was she really awake or not? And if he didn’t pinch her maybe she should pinch him.

‘Ouch’ Ben rubbed his arm and started laughing, his deep dark wonderful laugh. ‘Yes you are awake, don’t you know by now that even though I’m not on Twitter myself I do feel the need to keep track on what’s been said about me? And you my dear Jen appealed to me from the very first time I read things about you.’

‘You’re pulling my leg’ Jen frowned

Ben laughed again ‘No honest I’m not, I’m here aren’t I? I would have brought a horse but that is overdoing it a bit I thought’

‘Yeah, the riding of into the sunset is so overrated’ Jen laughed

‘You do know we first have to get to know each other and all that? I mean what I said to your boss… It was… I mean’ Ben stammered

‘I know yes of course I wouldn’t have it any other way’ Jen looked at Ben and when they walked away from the life she had hated so much she though: It really looks like my happily ever after has just began.  

© KH

Saturday 10 May 2014

on Fanfiction

Well it has been a while but I was busy writing my fanfics. And who is reading on here anyway? No one really. It really is more for me than anyone else. But having said that: There are a lot of fanfics going around. For me, English not being my first language, it's great practice. Further more; I really do love it! I wouldn't have thought so in the beginning but I do.

I always have written stories; short stories mostly. Poems later on but the stories I really enjoyed writing. When I got hooked on Sherlock I felt I needed to join in the Fanfiction. Although I just couldn't write smut myself. I admit; I do like reading it though. Sure I am a Johnlockian at heart! Is there any other? To me there is none. Sherlock and John are made for each other!

I first started to write on this blog, but soon I got an invite from the lovely JuneJuly15 on Archive of our Own (short AO3)
and now I'm putting my 'stuff' on there.

The things you read on there are amazing by the way! From Sherlock and John, (Johnlock) to Sherlock and Molly (the to me weird sounding name; Sherlolly) and Khan fics where Khan can (khan) do it with about anybody! Sometimes there's so much smut it's borderline porn! Really!
My youngest son ones said to me: Mum, you're not writing smut are you! I do see you reading it! But don't you dare write it!
I laughed so hard, the boy is 17 and how on earth does he know about smut anyway!

And no, I don't write smut, I may write a bit romance but mostly I will write suspence. I don't know how to write any other way I guess.
Today the lovely Elle wrote her blog about FanFic and added my AO3 link on it. She read some of it and thought it was good! I thought: Oh wow, someone says it's good.. I think so but to read someone else say it.. That's a whole different story!

So If you feel like reading my fanfics here's the AO3 link:

Kati67

© KH

Friday 14 March 2014

Brother Dearest; Chapter 7





Turn me into someone like you
Find a place that we can go to
Run away and take me with you
Don't let go I need your rescue (Muse-Save me)

When Sherlock arrived at Piccadilly Circus with Lestrade, the police had already tried to evacuate part of the surrounding streets. Sherlock’s eyes were searching in the crowd of people. Of course it was a busy day today of all days. There were tourists all over the place on this beautiful first day of spring. It was still early but more people were coming, busloads of them! Lestrade went to talk to his colleagues to try and get as many people away from Piccadilly as soon as possible. Sherlock however was still looking for John. Finally he found him on the corner at a traffic sign. He had his jacket zipped but Sherlock could see some wires underneath his coat. John just stood there, hands in his pockets. He was looking at the people coming from the bus and the police directing them back in the bus. John looked at his watch. Then he crossed the street and walked to the Eros statue where he stood still.

All of a sudden without any warning John took out a gun from his pocket and shot in the air. People started screaming and running in all directions. The police tried to get them out of there in an orderly fashion but people where panicking.

In that panic John grabbed one of the passer-byers and held him at gunpoint. It looked like it was a random man from the crowd but Sherlock; who still observed John saw another man push that man towards John and then running off himself as if he didn’t have anything to do with it.
 
John started to yell out loud: ‘I’m going to shoot this man if you don’t listen!’

Nobody did listen; the screams where to loud and there was too much panic. Sherlock still watched John and started to shout across the street: ‘John! John stop this! Don’t do this, John we are here to help!’

John looked around when he heard Sherlock’s deep baritone voice. His eyes locked onto Sherlock’s when he saw him. Sherlock could see the unwillingness in his eyes. There was something else, something that drove him to this. ‘Stop Sherlock, or I’ll have to shoot this man and I will’ John said.

Sherlock was halfway across the street but stopped in front of the statue of Eros. He looked at John standing in the middle of the street. ‘Let that man go, John, take me in his place, please’

John saw the look on Sherlock’s face; ‘You know I can’t do that’ he said with a cold tone in his voice that frightened Sherlock.

John firmed his grip around the man’s neck and pointed the gun at his temple. In the meanwhile the police had managed to get rid of the crowd of people at Piccadilly Circus and was busy putting up a perimeter. It was now just John, Sherlock and the police. John had to know this wouldn’t end well for him.

Sherlock started to walk towards him holding out his hands; ‘I just want to talk to you John, please, let me come nearer’ and when John didn’t respond; ‘John, Nothing is what is seems. I know what you mean now. This is not you, this is Moriarty, obviously. I am sure there are several marksmen behind me, pointing guns at me, am I right?’ Sherlock stopped and faced John. He saw John’s eyes looking quickly up and down to Sherlock again.

‘I don’t know what you’re on about’ he then said and again his eyes where flashing up to a building across the street and to Sherlock again. ‘I want them’ looking at the police ‘to listen what I have to say, now Sherlock’ John started pulling the trigger. He held the man close and said; ‘I don’t have to tell you who this man is, do I?’

Sherlock who hadn’t given the man a second glance, turned towards the man and gasped. John had an arm around the man’s neck and held him close. It was the judge who had put Mary in jail. How did Moriarty know the man would be on this exact spot at this exact time?

Sherlock’s phone rang again; before he looked at it, he knew who it was. ‘Moriarty’ he said looking at John as he spoke.

‘Oh Sherlock, you’ve already wasted half an hour. And I don’t see Mary anywhere. Well, I am very disappointed in you, baby brother’ Moriarty heaved an exaggerated sigh. ‘You are trying my patience. Put the speaker phone on so John can hear’

Sherlock put the phone on speaker phone; ‘John’ Moriarty said ‘You can shoot the judge now. Go on, I’m watching you’

John hesitated. Sherlock saw he loosened his grip on the judge and whispered; ‘I don’t want to, please don’t make me. Sherlock, save me for God’s sakes’

‘You don’t have to’ Sherlock said looking at a police van driving towards them. ‘I believe there’s Mary. You can stop this now Moriarty and come and get your girlfriend yourself or she stays right here’

Moriarty started to laugh; ‘Oh Sherlock, you are so funny. I forget that sometimes. You did remember the BOMB now did you? Good, because if you don’t let Mary go, you know what will happen? Look at John Sherlock’ and as Sherlock turned to face John red dots appeared from across the street. Sherlock knew them all too well; the red dots from the marksmen. Sherlock put his phone back in his coat pocket.

The police van opened and out came Mary. Lestrade brought her to Sherlock. ‘What did the bastard say, Sherlock?’ Lestrade asked.

‘Give her to me, Greg. We have to think of John and the judge’ Sherlock was pointing at the red dots all over John’s jacket.

‘Bloody hell’ Lestrade said rubbing his unshaven chin. ‘You can see the wires of the bomb underneath his jacket. The bomb squat is standing by but you have to get it off of him Sherlock and quickly!’

Sherlock walked over to Mary who looked at him with a smug look on her face. ‘Don’t talk to me’ Sherlock said to her. ‘Not a single word from your lying mouth, or the deal is off, understood?’ The look Sherlock gave her whipped the look away and she started to get frightened of him; ‘You can’t hurt me’ she whispered ‘not here anyway’

Sherlock stopped and wanted to walk back. ‘Oh don’t be dramatic’ Mary said sighing ‘I’ll be quiet’ She rolled her eyes at him and they walked over to John.

When they got there John glanced quickly at Sherlock, pushed the judge away and grabbed Mary out of Sherlock’s arms. He held his arm around her neck and his gun pointed at her head.  

Sherlock didn’t hesitate for one second. He jumped forward and grabbed the judge’s arm. Lestrade, who had watched it from a small distance, came running. But he came too late.

John cried out to Sherlock; ‘Sherlock look out!’ and Sherlock saw all the red dots pointed at him and the judge. He tried to shout at John, but a gun firing deafened him for a short while. John screamed; Lestrade came running and the judge collapsed. He had been shot in his shoulder from somewhere out of the buildings on opposite side of the street. Sherlock turned fast and saw those red dots on John’s jacket and under that jacket was a bomb. He started running back to John shouting at him to duck. John looked down at the dots on his jacket. He manoeuvred Mary in a way that she covered him. 

‘Stand back!’ he shouted across the street ‘Stand back or I’ll blow her up as well!’

Sherlock’s phone rang again. He looked at John. ‘No’ John said ‘He has to come himself this time. Let him safe her. If he wants her so badly, he has to come and get her’ He put the gun at Mary’s cheek; ‘Shout his name, go on! Let him come over here. Now Mary!’

Mary screamed at the top of her lungs; ‘Jim, please come help me, he is going to shoot me, please!’

They waited for Moriarty to come but it didn’t seem that he would. ‘Well Mary, goodbye’ John said pulling the trigger. Mary started screaming and pleading with John as they heard a voice coming up from behind them.

‘Well, here I am, let her go’ Jim Moriarty came from behind the statue and stood there with a grin on his face.

‘I’d rather shoot her’ John said ‘She’s no good and neither are you for that matter’

Moriarty shrugged his shoulders; ‘I really don’t care what you think, GIVE HER TO ME’ He pulled his own gun and pointed it at John. 

John slowly pulled the trigger of his gun which he had placed on Mary’s cheek; ‘I wouldn’t if I where you’

Sherlock tried to take a step closer to get to Moriarty. ‘Oh no little brother’ Moriarty said ‘Try something and that bullet goes straight into Johnny boy’

They were at a stalemate. Neither side could move without the other one pulling the trigger.

‘Oh give it up already Moriarty’ Lestrade shouted from a small distance ‘Don’t think for one minute you two are escaping from here!’

‘I swear’ John said looking at Moriarty ‘I’m taking her with me if you let those thugs take one shot at me’

Moriarty looked up at one of the buildings, nodded and all of a sudden the red dots disappeared. He slowly lowered his gun but then suddenly with a frustrated cry he fired and hit John’s leg.

Lestrade signalled and policemen came from everywhere to arrest a screaming Moriarty.

John was shocked at the sudden sharp pain in his leg just after he heard the sound of a gun firing at it. He let go off Mary who tried to run away but was arrested by Sergeant Donovan.

As John caved to the ground he felt Sherlock’s arms around him, freeing him of the bomb jacket and then holding him and he looked up at him and smiled before he closed his eyes in pain.

                                                               
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‘How are you feeling?’ Sherlock rearranged John’s pillows on the sofa and pulled up a chair.

‘Good good’ John smiled ‘A bit tired but otherwise just good. I’m glad to be home again’

‘Turns out Moriarty wasn’t such a good shot after all’ Sherlock smirked

‘It certainly doesn’t feel like that’ John sat more upright with a pain stricken face.

‘Can I help?’ Immediately Sherlock rose next to him.

‘I can get used to this you know’ John smiled up to him. ‘But before I forget; who was on the phone this morning?’

‘Ah, yes, I almost forgot. That was Greg Lestrade. I told him I knew who I thought the man in the Thames was.’

‘Well, don’t let me wait, it’s not that I’m going anywhere or anything’ John sighed

‘Sorry’ Sherlock sat down again. ‘The man found under Blackfriars Bridge was Mary’s lawyer as it turns out’

‘Really? Well, Moriarty doesn’t do things half way apparently’

‘Hm, no apparently not’ Sherlock seemed distracted.

‘Well case solved then?’ John turned and faced Sherlock. ‘Or not; you’re looking like you’re going to be sick or something. Are you alright?’

Sherlock fidgeted with his hands and scuffed his feet. He was nervous.
He knew he had to say something but he didn’t know how to start.

He didn’t have to. John put his hand on Sherlock’s. ‘It’s alright Sherlock I know. It would be lovely if you’d said it, but I know.
Of course I know! How could I not?’

Sherlock looked up at John. He could mean anything by saying that. But when his eyes met John’s all hesitation melted away;
‘John’ he whispered ‘I have been so alone before you came in my life. And ever since I met you, I… I just am not alone anymore.
I can’t explain it properly, I’m sorry’

‘It’s alright, like I said, I’m not going anywhere for a while. I can’t walk very well with that damn leg, so I’ll just lay here and wait till you’ll be ready, alright?’ John took his hand away and leaned back into his pillows. He sounded disappointed Sherlock thought.

Sherlock stood up and walked to the kitchen trying very hard not to cry. Damn you, he cursed himself. Now you have blown probably the only chance you’ll ever get! Sherlock got angry at himself for being that weak. He hated being weak. He leaned against the kitchen sink and felt the tears welling up in his eyes. ‘Caring is not an advantage, Sherlock’ he heard Mycroft’s voice saying in his head. His hands where clinging to the counter as he tried harder to push the tears away. He waited so long for this moment and now it had gone and passed. In the living room he heard John sighing. He couldn’t let this moment pass him by, he just couldn’t. It didn’t matter what the world would think, or even what John would think. He had to get it off of his chest. It was killing him. He had absolutely no idea what John would say or feel for that matter but he just had to try!

He turned around and rubbed over his face and whipped the tears out of his eyes. He straightened his back and walked back to the sofa back to John who was laying eyes closed on his pillows. He looked tired. From a small distance Sherlock looked at him. Then Sherlock bent down and carefully planted a soft very gentle kiss on John’s lips. John opened his eyes as Sherlock withdraw and smiled.

‘Finally’ he said ‘You don’t know how long I’ve been waiting for that’

‘You have?’ Sherlock looked surprised.

‘Oh God yes!’ John sighed. ‘I didn’t want to make the first move; I didn’t want to scare you off. I knew you had to take your own time.
But I’ve seen you struggling Sherlock and I so wanted to let you know it wasn’t necessary!’

‘I wish I knew but you are probably right.’ Sherlock sat down in his chair again. ‘Everybody knew but me, even you! And I thought I was smart!’ Sherlock shook his head.

‘Well you are, only not when it comes to matters of the heart’ John smiled at him lovingly and took his hand again and squeezed it.

Sherlock looked at John and when he bent down to kiss him again he said; ‘I love you John Watson, I always have’

‘I love you too, Sherlock Holmes’ John said before Sherlock’s mouth touched his with a gentle long kiss. 

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Tuesday 11 March 2014

Brother Dearest; Chapter 6



Hang on; help is on its way
I’ll be there as fast as I can
“Hang on” a tiny voice did say
From somewhere deep inside the inner man
(Little River Band-Help is on its way)

After panicking sometime after John was taken by Moriarty, which was not Sherlock’s way, he started to think of it like it was a new case. He had put photos of John on the wall like he had done in other cases and was looking at them, pondering. He stayed up all night, only to sleep for a few hours, not eating and only drinking some tea. Mrs Hudson came upstairs every now and again worrying. But he brushed all her worrying aside and pushed her out of the door. He phoned with Lestrade if there was any news; Mycroft came over more then was normal for him with a concerned look on his face.

‘Sherlock I really feel you should get some rest and eat something’ Mycroft tried to persuade his brother.

‘Oh please Mycroft; don’t baby me and leave me be’ Sherlock waved his hand as if he was brushing off a fly.

‘He has not phoned you I gather?’ Mycroft asked carefully.

Sherlock turned his head. Mycroft saw he had bags under his eyes and his eyes where reddish from not sleeping. He sighed; ‘No Mycroft he hasn’t. If he does I’ll let you know. Goodbye’

‘Sherlock…’

‘Goodbye!’ Sherlock walked over to his brother and practically pushed him out of the door and shut it behind him. He could just hear his brother’s voice from the other side softly saying; ‘I know it must hurt Sherlock. Take care of yourself please. You can’t help him, if you don’t take care of yourself!’ And then he heard Mycroft walking down. He stayed there listening until he heard the front door closing.

Mycroft was right of course, he thought. He needed to eat. He needed sleep too. He felt so tired all of a sudden.  He must have stayed awake for about 3 days now, more or less, walking around London, staying up looking at his wall, looking at the pictures of John, thinking.
He walked to the kitchen and looked in the cupboard. There was only some moulded bread. That meant he had to go out to do some grocery shopping and he really didn’t feel up to that right about now. He was so tired. He walked to his bedroom, dragging his feet. He really should be out there looking for John and his mother, but the sleep was taking over his brain. He never in his life had felt so tired. He fell on his bed, not bothering to undress and immediately fell asleep.


In the middle of the night he woke up from a frightening nightmare. John’s face was screaming at him without making any sound. He mouthed a word; ‘Help. Help me Sherlock’ and then all of a sudden a loud scream and when he awoke he realised it was he who was screaming. He closed his own mouth, hoping he hadn’t awakened Mrs Hudson. His head hurt and he his stomach rumbled.
A knock on the door told him that Mrs Hudson had heard him screaming; ‘Sherlock? Are you alright? Sherlock! It’s me, open the door please’

He ruffled with his hands through his hair and scuffed to the door. ‘I’m sorry Mrs Hudson’ he said with a guilt stricken face ‘I didn’t want to wake you. I was having a nightmare’

‘Oh Sherlock, sleeping in your clothes again, dear?’ Mrs Hudson took a good look at him; ‘You haven’t eaten for days have you? Come on, I’ll make you breakfast’ and when Sherlock started to protest she said; ‘No I don’t want any arguments from you’ She took him by the hand and he went willingly too hungry to protest further.

It was almost 5 o’clock in the morning when they finished they’re early breakfast. Sherlock hadn’t eaten this much in ages! Mrs Hudson was standing at her kitchen sink with a smug face; grinning.

And that’s when Sherlock’s phone rang.

Both of them jumped up; scared. Mrs Hudson’s hands where fluttering about and Sherlock’s face was turning green; if he’d only not eaten so much…

He picked up his phone; ‘Hello?’

‘Sherlock, Greg here. We found your mother’

                                                         
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Sherlock was told to stay where he was, but of course he couldn’t. It took him only 10 minutes to be at the sight where Greg had said his mother was found.

‘What did I tell you?’ Greg said when he saw him.

‘I know, shut up, where is she?’ Sherlock wanted to continue walking but Greg stopped him.

‘Sherlock, stop’

‘Greg? Is she alright? Tell me she is alright?’

‘She is alive but that’s all I can tell you so far. The medics are working on her. And no you can’t go there now, let them do their job first’

Sherlock paced back and forth until Mycroft showed. Greg could tell his whole story from the start and they both started pacing.

Finally the medics were done and their mother was stable enough to be transported to the hospital. As they came walking with her on a stretcher Sherlock and Mycroft both ran towards her. ‘Will she make it?’ Sherlock asked a medic.

‘She’s badly injured sir, we will know more in the next couple of hours. You have to go to the hospital and ask her doctor’

At that moment Sherlock’s phone rang; ‘Hello Sherlock, well how’s mummy doing?’

‘Damn you!’ Sherlock growled into the phone. ‘How could you! She’s barely alive’

‘She’s alive, isn’t she? Don’t whine Sherlock! It’s BORING!’

Sherlock started to get angry but he remembered that Moriarty still had John; ‘Let me speak to John please’

‘Oh you are so demanding. I don’t like having a little brother. But I’m in a good mood today, so alright than… Oh lover boy… someone wants to talk to you’ he said handing the phone to John.

Sherlock turned around quickly although no-one could hear what Moriarty said. He felt he was blushing when he heard him say that.

‘Sherlock’ John’s voice sounded weak and he had hoarseness in his voice but Sherlock was so happy to hear him.

‘John! John are you alright? How is he treating you? Did he harm you in any way? John, don’t you worry, I’ll find you!’

John had trouble talking. He cleared his throat before he tried to talk. ‘How’s your mother?’

‘She’s alive’ was all Sherlock said.

‘Good, good’ John coughed. ‘Sherlock, listen, I’ve have time to think. I thought about some of the cases we’ve done you know?’
Sherlock wanted to answer him but John said quickly; ‘No think Sherlock, people don’t think anymore, do they? Nothing was what is seemed in some cases we did. Remember in Baskerville? How I saw things that weren’t there? Sherlock, just don’t…’ John got cut off by Moriarty.

‘Well that’s quite enough from him. I really don’t know what he is babbling about, but he is doing that now. He’s starting to bore me too! Why are you having such boring friends and family Sherlock? Really, a complete and utter boring life you have! Well, nice talking to you! Have to dash! Talk to you soon, real soon!’

And before Sherlock could reply he heard the disconnected tone.
Greg Lestrade was standing next to him as he turned around; ‘What did the bastard had to say for himself?’

Sherlock had to digest it all himself. Thankfully John was alive but what he had said bothered him. Nothing was what it seemed? What did Baskerville have to do with it? He needed to think. ‘I have to go’ he simply said.

‘Oh no you don’t!’ Lestrade stopped him by taking his arm and looked him in his eyes; ‘Sherlock, I’m going with you to your house and you are going to tell me what he said, understood! You are not doing this alone, you hear?’

All of a sudden Sherlock felt so tired, so very tired. He began to falter. He looked up at detective inspector Lestrade and nodded; 

‘Alright’ he said.
                                                    
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When Lestrade walked into the living room of 221 B Baker Street, he tried to ignore the mess Sherlock had made, however difficult. He stepped over stacks of paper, brushed aside newspapers and more photos of John and Moriarty from the couch, and emptied the table from empty tea cups. And John had been away for only four days now?

‘Tea?’ Sherlock asked him. One look in the kitchen told Lestrade that he didn’t want a single thing. If it was messy in here it was even messier in the kitchen.

‘If John comes home he will love what you’ve done with the place’ he tried joking about it.

Sherlock turned around and faced him angrily; ‘WHEN he comes back you mean’

‘Yeah, sorry when he comes back’ Lestrade looked at Sherlock’s angry face. He was right to worry about him; he had changed. He felt it at the Holmes Cottage and now he knew. ‘Sherlock, may I ask you a personal question first?’

Sherlock sat down, his long fingers folded under his chin. ‘Yes you may’

‘I’m not sure how to put this really, but you and John…’ Lestrade hesitated.

‘Me and John what, Greg, you can say it out loud you know. There is nothing going on if that’s what you mean’

‘No, no, I mean, I noticed something different, you are different. And I just felt, well I just wanted to know if there is something I should know; you know what will help the case of course. Oh bollocks, I am worried about you, that’s it, there I said it’

Sherlock couldn’t help but smile; ‘Greg, there is nothing going on between me and John. But yes, you are correct. I am different. I am worried; extremely worried about John’ Sherlock leaned forward towards Greg; ‘Can I trust you Greg, I feel that I can and I don’t trust people quickly’

‘Of course you can!’ Lestrade was offended Sherlock had to ask.

‘Greg, I’m telling you this off the record alright? I don’t know about John, but I eh, my feelings for John, well they have changed’

Lestrade slapped himself on his knee; ‘I knew it! You are in love with him aren’t you!’ and when Sherlock nodded ‘I knew it!’

Sherlock told him about the phone call he got from Moriarty and what John had said. ‘Nothing is what it seems?’ Lestrade said.

‘What isn’t what it seems? I don’t get it!’ Lestrade hadn’t finished his sentence or his phone rang. He answered and listened and then looked at Sherlock in shock ending the phone call.

‘What?’ Sherlock said ‘What was that about, why are you looking at me like that? Tell me Greg!’

‘John was seen on CCTV. He is wired with a bomb and has a gun. He is walking towards Piccadilly Circus.’

‘Oh my god’ Sherlock whispered.

Sherlock’s phone rang; ‘Hello’ he said softly.

‘Sherlock, dear brother, how are you? I know the detective inspector is with you and you heard the news. Well, our boy is turned against you brother dear! He is working for me now! First he going to kill loads of people and then he willingly is taking his own life for me, isn’t that sweet? Just because you’re such a bore! Of course he is taking loads of people with him when he explodes, in thousands of pieces. Yes John Watson is definitely in danger!’

‘What do you want, Moriarty?’ Sherlock couldn’t talk normally, his voice was failing.

‘I want Mary Morstan back, a free ‘get out of jail-card’ just for her. And then a nice place for us both, far away from you boring people!’

‘And you think I can get you that?’ Sherlock shook his head in disbelief.

‘Well, you’d better hurry, or else; BOOM! Bye bye John Watson! You have one hour!’ and Sherlock stood there with his phone in his hand listening to another disconnected tone.  

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